Fear of Fame

I have a feeling that Toughnut Angel will soon publish somewhere. My first feelings are delight and excitement and anticipation. However, closely following upon their heels are feelings born of the thought that Nellie’s story will bring fame into my life. I do not desire fame. Fame takes away privacy and adds people who think you know everything about everything. I don’t even remember everything I’ve learned about Nellie, much less anything else. So fear is my next feeling. I follow that with a prayer requesting that God not give me fame.
However, there is no situation God cannot handle. I doubt that He will give me what I ask this time, about the no fame thing. I think He may be stretching my horizons, at 64 cotton picking years old. He’s like that. Just when you think you’ve got life figured out, He shows you the zillion things you don’t know spit about. I could kick and scream and insist, and He would give me what I’m kicking and screaming about, or back off me until I grow up.
However, I will not kick and scream. I’ve pulled that before, and it comes out badly. I have no idea where we’re headed, God and me and Nellie, but I trust God. If He leads me into the fearsome forest of fame, He will not drop me off to fend for myself. He will walk with me, and I will remain His kid. It will be OK. Jane, do you hear me, it will be ok! If you are looking at possibilities in life that put you in fear mode, all this about God is true for you, too, as long as you let Him lead. Have a good week.

7 thoughts on “Fear of Fame”

  1. Hi Jane! So glad you're willing to risk becoming well known in order to get your book published! Keep me posted on your progress. I whispered a pray for you just now, asking God to open the doors for your story.

  2. Thinking of you Jane during this holy season. And what an awesome title forNellie’s story! All the best from me to you! Mickey

    1. Hi Mickey!
      I think of you often, and tell people how hospitable you and your husband when we were in Victoria. May God fill your Christmas with love. Jane

    2. Mickey, my email was hacked a while back and I don’t have your contact info anymore. Could you send it to my new email? It’s bakesverbiage @gmail.com

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